Next Step Of Sucide...Can You Sort the Situation?

Hi Basil, your life kind of sounded like mine when I was young. You know this is what I did because of my family being so cruel to me. My mother knew my stepfather was molesting me she did not care. So long as he left her alone. I have 4 siblings. 2 younger that my mother had when she readopted me after dumping me off in an orphanage when I was 3. She remarried had my step sis and brother. You don't need them. My oldest brother, never contacted me (he was 20 years older than me) until he found out he needed my blood to save his life, he ended up with Leukemia. I flew back 4 times back East to help him. Did I even get a thank you, go to hell, let me help you out financially at least pay for the airline tickets, because I know you just lost your job? No, and my brother had a lot of money, I did not ask for anything, just help with the cost. NOTHING. He ped away. No loss from me. My other brother just inherited a lot of money, he was told by my uncle to take care of me, he put some money in an envelope and threw it across the table at me, he acted like he was being killed, we no longer speak, its not the amount of money its the way he dealt with it. I no longer speak to my little sis and brother, because their father was the molester (he is dead now, he suffered a heart attack which I hope it hurt bad and for along time) they are embarred to have me around. I am mentioning this to you because if you run along these lines of abuse, you do not need it, why? Family is not that important, they will be the ones to hurt you or rip you off before anyone else, I don't know why its this way but it sucks. I now have a husband of 20 years, I am very happy, 1 very good friend, I am happy with life, this will happen for you , just don't miss the opportunity to miss it, When you do meet the right person, express your feeling but do not dwell on them, it will keep you down and your partner. Imagine the next time one of them hurts you visualize them laughing at you. They for some reason want to bring you down to their level, are they worth letting them get away with this? HELL NO!!! Slowly delete them from your life, but join a club, talk to strangers, hell strangers treat me better than my own family. When you see or feel something dragging you down get the hell away from it, immediately, after awhile it does get better, you will be amazed....This is how big of an a-----e my brother is, after our oldest brother died of Leukemia, he told me that the brother that died was mad at me? I asked him "Why"....the response was "I don't know". Now why tell me something like this? To hurt there is no other reason. I did not even know my brother that died, he left the house shortly after I was born, and I only seen him 3 times throughout my life until he needed me to save his life. Family will do it to you before anybody else. I hope this does help in some way Basil, I hope you have a Very Merry Christmas!!!It may not seem like it now, but it will get better.